29 July, 2010

Day 1: my best friend

To my best friend liz, 
our friendship, as cheesy as this sounds, is something i secretly wanted from the first day at band camp. I was just thinking how cool you seemed and especially how cute you were dressed. I honestly never thought that i would meet my best friend through band, but here we are and i owe it to band tour! such good memories. 
All silliness aside, you really are a blessing in my life and your friendship to me is very very precious. I feel like you really understand me, and you're so patient too. All the things that i define in a friend you are, and more. You're so incredibly thoughtful and sincere. You are a great 'pick-me-up', so fun to be with all the time, you bring me out of my shell, and i really feel like we balance each other out. I love that our families are mirror images and that we can relate to so much, and I'm ESPECIALLY happy that i get to be part of your special wedding day! (i'm gonna cry my eyes out for certain)
i feel like there's so much more that i want to say to you, but know at least this much, you are one of those priceless friends. i don't know what i did to deserve you and i don't know what i would do without you! Liz, you are a hidden treasure, and i'm glad to have met you! I have your back whenever you need me, and lets stay best friends for a lifetime :)
looooooooooove you

27 July, 2010

life letters

so i'm doing this thing called life letters, a series in which i will write a letter to a person a day!
i'll begin tomorrow because i don't have time today :)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

25 July, 2010

doubt reigns

i wish i knew why everyone feels this way, and why i don't see it.
am i blind?
do they just not understand?
are they just not giving it a chance?
am i too stubborn to see it any other way?
this fear of not really knowing is what makes me go crazy. it starts playing with my mind and i'll i'm left with is doubt. i hate it. i wish i knew how to confront them about how it makes me feel. mostly it just leaves a feeling of helplessness, as if i'm a little girl lost in a city, never knowing which way to turn or what move to make.