work in progress.

so it's july 4 already, and in just a matter of weeks i'm officially off to college. august 10--the marking point of new: chapters, friends, experiences, struggles, information, treasures. i can't help but be overwhelmingly excited/anxious, but at the same time, in doing so i realize i'm pushing the now to the wayside. scary. how often will i be able to wake up at eleven, mop the floor, then play uno with my sister and her boyfriend? how often will i make a million trips to Meadowlakes? how often will my friends and i schedule late night worship on the golf course? how often will i have 11:00 pm visitors sitting in my living room? how often will i celebrate family with our lives all waiting to spring up into all newness? mom is now a 3rd grade teacher. dad's construction has him up to his neck in business. sarah is on her own in high school. i'm going to brownwood. it's as if our time as the old locklears is teetering on a fine line. we're movin on up. one thing i'm really scared for is sarah. i'm not gonna be at home to be a nosy but private eye anymore. she's sneaky. i dont' want her to fall into traps unseen but only leading to sticky and unfortunate situations. we're not the same. she's the wild child without a doubt, and i pray that this year and those following God would just place his hedge of protection around her. yikes, i just know that after my first couple of months in college she'll have already grown up so much. i guess that's one of my absolute favorite things; going away returning to a new person. it's like a brand new story ready and waiting to unfold and be told at the word.

but lately i'm in love with the group hillsong. wow. that's all i have to say about that.

i'll finish when my focus is back